Stardust

"I know a lot about love. I've seen it. I've seen centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain and lies. Hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But to see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing..."
- Yvaine, a star from the sky

I've finished reading Angels and Demons by Dan Brown.

"Doubt is your last shred of control. It is doubt that brings souls to you. Our need to know that life has meaning. Man's insecurity and need for an enlightened soul assuring him everything is part of a master plan. But the church is not the only enlighted soul on the planet! We all seek God in different ways. What are you afraid of? That God will show himself somewhere other than inside these walls? That people will find him in their own lives and leave your antiquated rituals behind? Religions revolve! The mind finds answers, the heart grapples with new truths...God is not some omnipotent authority looking down from above, threatening to throw us into a pit of fire if we disobey. God is the energy that flows through the synapses of our nervous system and the chambers of our hearts! God is in all thing!" - Vittoria (669)

We learn through science and we believe through religion. Can we associate both amongst each other? Can we learn to believe through science AND religion? Collaborating is key. Compromise. Together. Unity. "One hand can not clap, without the other", my dad always says; you need to have more than one in order to create.

"Feels like I'm starting all over again..."
-Goodbye To You, Michelle Branch

I'm about to turn 17. And it feels like it was just yesterday that I was nervous over 16...year after year, they keep a steady pace with us. Sometimes it seems so fast and sometimes it seems slow. Different for everyone eh...time is innocent and it's precious. We should cherish all that we have around us. If the time now, isn't at all what you should cherish, then think forward into your future and make whatever you want to happen happen.

To all women, who experienced suffering and pain, in this world: I love you. I love you ALL for existing, so that I (and hopefully, many other people) can learn your story and respect you. Know that I respect every one of those you have experienced anything at all. It is because you girls experienced it, that I feel stronger, inspiring me to want to continue to know and acknowledge so much more.

"I'm getting old..." - We've all got a first time in our lives when we first said this. My first time was 2 years ago when I was 15 turning 16. I'm stupid for saying that, because obviously I'm not getting old, I'm just growing of age; there's such a big difference...

Moving on...

My two cousins are entering the next chapter in their life. Sherman, 28 (I think) has just ended a 4 year long relationship with a girl. I really liked her. She was great company and a wonderful friend to our family. After she went back to her hometown, he was forced to a dilemma; both choices is unwanted. Finally, they broke up and I respect them. It's sad for me to see Sherman in this state. I could tell he really loved her. And it would've been nice if she became my cousin-in-law but things don't always turn out the way we want eh? They used to share rent for an apartment in Burnaby, but since she left, Sherman bought a condominium near his work and our entire familys' proud of him. Yesterday, when we were all having dinner together, my aunt talked about how great of a bachelor my cousin is, considering the state that our economy is in. (It's hard to explain how I feel about this...looking at his face when she said this.) I remember when we were little kids, he would take us all youngin's to the theatre, playlands and amusement parks, and we'd go shopping; that was ages ago.
Stephanie, 26, is quitting her full-time job (in this "economic depression"), selling her car, moving out of their cheap apartment in Vancouver and moving to Australia for a year at the end of March for schooling with her room mate. I admire my cousins so much. I feel like I'm getting old just because I turning 17 next Wednesday. I look up to my cousins. They do a lot of things I'd like to do as I grow older. I can do that and so much more as well! It just takes time and patience. Which I don't have at all...